A Victim to Circumstance🌃

 Our actions define the shape of our future. But what if we're compelled to act in a certain way due to circumstances? 

Growing up in an orthodox community, I learnt the value of words uttered to be kept, taught to behave in a certain way, and act in a manner that does not harm anybody in any aspect. Yes, I diligently took up my responsibility, keeping mind what I was imbibed with, and walk the path of righteousness. However, as time lapsed and roles began to shift, I fell into a victim to circumstances. 

I knew I had to keep my word as a responsible adult. I knew I had to gather strength and keep performing my duties in whichever role I was assigned with. Yet, as "none can skip the test of time", I couldn't skip it either. Leniency in taking right decisions, at the right time, eventually, led to a dilemma. Keeping my word as what I was instructed as a child, or taking a stand for myself, led to taking certain decisions which never worked in my favour. And as a result I fell and became a victim of circumstances.  

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A Void in My Heart

 I have A Void in My Heart. A hollowness in my stomach. Thoughts that tangle in my mind. The continuous recurrence of thoughts -- positive or otherwise-- which is never ending. Multiple dimensions, multiple perspectives, a number of sounds play; voices unheard point out questions to which unanswerable I am many a times. 

  I have A Void in My Heart that has succumbed to feelings. Empathy, which had been the essence of my personality, is withering with time and experience. Sometimes a loss saddens me, sometimes guilt of certain actions. A momentary fraction of cheerfulness blooms, while a sudden drift of emotional typhoon sweeps over the delight I felt. 

A metamorphosis of events shapes life's course. I never pondered upon the fact that I, was chosen to taste life so soon. Infancy, is what I crave for at present. The innocence of "what has been, and never more will be". I only wish life wasn't as cruel as it showed up for me. Yet, I persevere to shape my destiny, I manifest the power and potential to carve my own path, unhindered by the actions of my past.

SpeckyCaterpillar👓🐛